Passion

I came across this video.  This video portrays everything I felt.  It was like thunder. Why be scared?  What are you afraid of? Why? So now I do shit.  Going to a co-ed kickboxing class is the scariest thing for me ever but I do it.  Why?  Cause I'm no longer scared.  I found my passion.  Have you?

 

Knuckle Push-ups

Just a little note...

So now I can do 25 knuckle push-ups.  And the only reason is cause it's hard to do them regular when you're on the mat and your wraps keep slipping.  So I just do knuckles. 

Anyways...

I'm sitting in the car with my brother.  He's in the passenger seat and Julianna is sitting at the back.  We're parked and waiting for our cousins.  So I tell him how many knuckle push-ups I can do now.  Cause I'm always doing them at kickboxing.  lmfao A little voice pipes up from the back seat, "No one cares!!!!!" 

lmfao My daughter is totally jelling that there is something that I can do better than her.  My brother and I just started jarring out.  My kid is so cute.

Muay Thai

It's official.

I'm a kickboxer.  :P lol

So a few weeks ago, I went to the Total Martial Arts Centre (TMAC).  I signed up for three classes a week, which is like $96/month.  I figure I can use my savings benefit to pay for it. 

Anyways... I go to the lunch classes held on Mondays and Fridays, which is Co-ed.  (Which I'm kinda surprised considering I never try to stay in the same room if men are occupying it.  But I figure if I can get over that fear while doing something else, it's just a bonus.) Anyways, the first couple of classes were awesome.  Everyone was partnered up so I got the green monster (the punching bag).  I LOVE the green monster.  Why?  CAUSE HE DOESN'T HIT BACK!!!  Then I go to class last Friday, and there's three of us females there.  So now I'm part of a group.  And OMG! Did I get hit and kicked!  Like for real.  By the end of the class, I was begging for the green monster.  My back was so sore and my arms and hands shook for the rest of the day because my muscles were so sore from being hit and kicked.  (Okay, we use blockers but still, your body absorbs the impact.) And then what do I do?  I go pow wow dancing for two hours after that.  Apparently, I'm the fucken biggest idiot that ever lived.  By Friday night, I was crying.  Yes.  Crying.  Tears of pain. My body was sooooo sore!  I rubbed A535 all over my body.  I smelled like old person. The next morning, I jumped out of bed.  My body was so stiff. And still sore. 

Anyways, the only downside about it is constantly washing my gear, especially the hand wraps.  I think I might need to buy a couple of more, just so I'm not constantly doing laundry.  And I need more work out clothes. Bleh.  Shopping.  :(

So that's it.  It's been three weeks and I love it. I don't love being the only girl there but whateves.  I didn't sign up to hang out with friends.  I signed up to kick some ass.  Anyways...

Swimming Lessons

Okay, I'm taking the biggest plunge ever.

Just signed up for swimming lessons.

Still terrified of the water.  I still have anxiety attacks even if I'm close to water.  But enough is enough.  It's all a go. 

I wonder if my body remembers drowning.  I mean...if my mind can, is it possible my body can too? 

I'm looking forward to not being afraid.

:)

Kickboxing

Kickboxing is a go.  Signed up.  Scared as shit but meh, whatever. 

Bleh

I truly hate my elliptical.  It's trying to kill me.  :(

Alone. Again. :(

So I call my sister (The American) over. So she comes over with her Hubby.  Anyways, I give her a birthday card, cause it is her birthday and she's finally 40!  Anyways, supper is cooking.  Then Julianna asks me if she could go sleep over.  I'm like, "What?  I thought you wanted to spend the weekend with me?"  She's like, "Never mind."  So she goes and I'm alone. 

 

But I was productive.  Kinda.  I made appetizers!  Jalepeno Poppers and Bacon Wrapped Potatoes.  Of course, I didn't eat them.  I made the poppers for my friend Terri and my neighbour Morgan, who by the way went to IKEA for me last weekend!  Anyhoo, I decided to make some potatoes for Scott.  But he wasn't at Morgan's so I just gave them to Morgan. 

Jalepeno Poppers and Bacon Wrapped Potatoes with garlic and onion

 

I also did my kettlebell workout and danced for almost an hour.  No worries; I used my Bluetooth headphones.  By the time, I went to bed, I was quite thirsty and ended up drinking three glasses of ice juice.  So I went to bed early and then finally a couple of hours later, I was in dreamland.

 

So it was kinda nice to walk straight to work as opposed to walking to daycare, dropping her off and then walking to work using another street.  I guess I'll be alone again tonight.  I'm thankful I have leftovers so I don't have to cook anything.  Laundry and movie are on the agenda but like as if I ever follow that. 

 

I had a shake for lunch and yogurt and a chocolate milk for my afternoon snack, which, sadly, I'm now paying for.  :(  Why must all the good shit contain lactose?  I cry.  :(

 

Anyhoo, that's it for now.  If I fall off the elliptical again, I'll come back and tell you about it.  :)

 

 

Thursday

I truly LOVE Thursdays.  Today I get to work at the Urban Park from 12-3.  The Urban Park is when all downtown businesses get to sit outside on Third Avenue.  Sometimes ppl hardly come to the booth, sometimes they do.  But it's a beautiful day today to sit outside. 

 

Last night I rode my elliptical and nearly killed myself!  Holy Shit!  Like...for reals!  Remind me never to ride the damn thing when I'm talking to Kristin on the phone.  :/  lmfao I'm kinda glad she didn't hear it.  Broad was still going on and on about her beads.  I wonder if she had an orgasm.  :P lol

 

Anyways, kettle bell workout done and I managed 6, yes, count them!  6 knuckles!  Ha!  :P lol  One of these days I'll do like 30.  With Jubey on my back!  :P lol jk  Let's not get crazy, ppl.

 

Anyways, I'm still on track with food and water.  Except for today.  Forgot to make my shake for lunch so I'll have to find a bite downtown.  Hopefully something healthy.  lol Let's not hold our breaths ppl.

 

I keep thinking about George Stroumbopopulis.  Pft.  However you spell his name.  You know who I'm talking about.  Anyways, I think some native should pick him up and just answer all his questions.  I get the feeling that he's too....shy?  I dunno.  Or maybe he just doesn't know how to ask questions.  I sent him a tweet one time about him asking me questions about being native and I'll ask him questions about men.  lol I didn't have any question about men. #willbealoneforever (That's my hashtag.  make your own!)  Anyways, this is about Jeb, not George.

 

Oh, by the way...my imaginary boyfriend is in Salt Lake City.  So he's only two hours behind!!!  He's catching up!  :D

 

Oh, and another thing, which I'm totally blaming Kristin for.  All of a sudden I feel like beading.  I got some pictures and I was like, I want to bead the whole cuff of the mitt.  So now I gotta get delica beads, which are more uniform than seed beads. 

 

This is the picture of my belt for my jingle dress regalia.  I'm not even done one paw.  I should really work on it this weekend since I might go pow wowing this weekend.  (I use the bear paw cause my Spirit name is Strong Bear Standing Women and the colours are the colours I was given.)

 

Sometimes I wish I had a man to bead for.  lmfao Be like Mom.  Dad had a new pair of Boston Bruin mitts every year.  Now that's love right there.  A die hard Habs fan making Bruins mitts for her man.

 

Well anyways, back to work.  Coffee breaks are too short!

What A Weekend...

So I managed to stay on track.  Usually my weekends consists of greasy breakfasts that keep me lazy.  Not this weekend.  Cereal with bananas.  I gotta say, Thank the Lord that I'm sugar free.  It's been about three years and the first few months did suck ass.  Every time I took a sip or bite of something sugar free, I'd be like, "Bleh!"  lol But I'm thankful I endured it.  Cause now life is easier.  Yay!

 

I also started my kettle bell workouts and I can do five knuckle push-ups!  Serious!  lol I surprised myself on Friday cause I did five regular push ups and then I tried the knuckle push-ups for fun.  And Yay, I accomplished it.  :)  I think I'll try and do those more.  Nothing says impressive like knuckle push-ups.  Yah, let's see Jubey try that shit.  :P lol

 

So I spent a majority of the weekend with rubber arms.  I'm only doing three reps of 10 with the kettle bell.  I'll work my way up.  On Sunday, I couldn't really understand why I was so sore.  lmfao Then I remembered my knuckle push-ups.  Awesome.  Who forgets the pain? 

 

Oh yeah, in other news, I got a new coffee table from IKEA.  I LOVE IKEA!  I'm serious.  And for a girl that's never been in love before, I can't compare it to anything but I think I LOVE IKEA. It might be serious.  Anyways, I'm super duper excited cause now it matches the end tables I got from IKEA two years ago.

 

Anyways,  that's it for now. 

 

Oh Yeah, I found this motivating.  Yup.  Pay attention to me now cause once I'm a hot MILF, I'll be too busy to notice you!  :P lol



Motivation

I don't know how I came across Jeb.  He just appeared on my Facebook. And then I started looking at all his pictures and videos and my mouth was gaping wide open.  I said, "I want to do that!"  It was like an epiphany!  It was like I was a volcano and I had been dormant for all these years.  The more I listened to him talk about conquering fears and flying because he's wanted to do it since he was a child, the more excited I became.  (No, not that way!) I got it. I finally got it.  And you know what I did?  I rode my elliptical for 10 minutes.  Not much but considering it was only a household decoration for the longest time, it was a start.

 

And then this happened...

 

 

Julianna had been training in her off time at gymnastics this whole summer.  Every day she was on the chin up bar, trying to conquer a higher number than the day before.  She was very serious about gymnastics and she had the passion for it.  She was so hard on herself if she didn't master a specific maneuver.  After every class, I had to calm her down and give her the same speech I had been giving her since she started.  "Julianna, you're not going to learn anything in a snap.  It takes time.  You had to learn to crawl, learn to walk, learn to talk.  It all takes time baby.  You just gotta keep trying.  Then one day, its gonna magically happen."  And I remembered these words when she showed me her guns.  Her arms were huge!  I was immediately ashamed.  Like really?  Your 8 yr old daughter is more serious about working out than you?  That's when I started.

 

It's all about baby steps. As a single parent, if your kids aren't around, then you're not eating, cause you're not cooking.  You're not cooking for one, you don't even notice that you went two days without eating because your daughter was across town at her cousin's place.  So I had a little goal.  Eat 6 times a day and drink 8 glasses of water each day.  IT'S FUCKEN HARD! Seriously.  A single parent whose life stops when your children step out that door.  I would sit in the arm chair until she returned two days later.  But this past week, I've managed to accomplish eating every day.  And drinking water. 

 

This weekend will be a bigger challenge as Julianna has gone to North Bay for the weekend.  But like I said... baby steps.  Drink and eat.  If I can accomplish it this weekend, then I'll work on menu planning and portion control.  This is where I'm glad that I gave up sugar and junk food.  LOL It will be an easy transition.  I'll ride my elliptical while watching TV and I just started a kettle bell workout, which apparently can give you a better cardio workout than the treadmill but not burn as much calories.  Still.  Calories are calories. 

 

Anyways, yeah.  That's it.  I started.  That's the most important thing. This volcano is ready to erupt.