Yeah...Pretty Much

So Yeah. I pretty much wanna be like Jeb. I dunno why. No one has ever been that inspiring. Like really, conquering fears. Like who does that? Who would want to do that? WHY? But I totally get it. I think I want to.

I was three years old when I drowned. I remember it. Then I was submerged. I could see my dad looking at me. He was in the water. He could see my head bopping above the water and me flailing for help. Then I saw him go under and I saw his feet. Then he grabbed me. That was my first memory of my Hero Daddy.

Hard to believe that I have so many fears. Especially with the way I was bought up. I was pretty much my Father's son. He didn't even take my little brother on his hunting/fishing trips. It was just me. I remember sitting in the sled and then the ski-doo stopping. Then I heard my dad. "Bunny." I got up to look and he was submerged in water. We had fallen thru the ice. Not really but that bottom layer is pretty much gonna give if you don't get off it soon. So I got off and he pulled the skidoo and sled out of the water. Then we just continued on to snare some rabbits at Doctor's Creek. Another memory of my Dad rescuing me.

INSPIRED. That's how I feel. Like really? Someone can just get over their fears? Count me in. It's like I'm actually sick and tired of being afraid. And to some people, I'm the strong one. Even after the sexual assault and suicide attempt, I came back. Stronger than ever. Nothing could stop me. Except the fears that I constantly had with me since I was a kid. Listening to Jeb Corliss, it's like, it all made sense. I was like, "I know, right!!!!"

So I started. And there's other things I gotta do, but at least I started, which is the most important thing. I think that's the first step. The very important step. If you can't take one first step, then what's the fucken point? Like really? Might as well crawl into your shell now.

I know I can do this. Julianna is my motivation. Just like Jeb, she's inspired me. But now she's motivated me. Mostly to kick her ass at exercising. lmfao If that's not motivation, I don't know what is. I can't wait to jump up and down and cheer and say, "YES! I did more push-ups than you!!!!" lmfao I'm so competitive, it's not funny. I anticipate many episodes of Julianna crying. LMFAO

Well anyways, getting it started.

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

What A Weekend...

So I managed to stay on track.  Usually my weekends consists of greasy breakfasts that keep me lazy.  Not this weekend.  Cereal with bananas.  I gotta say, Thank the Lord that I'm sugar free.  It's been about three years and the first few months did suck ass.  Every time I took a sip or bite of something sugar free, I'd be like, "Bleh!"  lol But I'm thankful I endured it.  Cause now life is easier.  Yay!
 
I also started my kettle bell workouts and I can do five knuckle push-ups!  Serious!  lol I surprised myself on Friday cause I did five regular push ups and then I tried the knuckle push-ups for fun.  And Yay, I accomplished it.  :)  I think I'll try and do those more.  Nothing says impressive like knuckle push-ups.  Yah, let's see Jubey try that shit.  :P lol
 
So I spent a majority of the weekend with rubber arms.  I'm only doing three reps of 10 with the kettle bell.  I'll work my way up.  On Sunday, I couldn't really understand why I was so sore.  lmfao Then I remembered my knuckle push-ups.  Awesome.  Who forgets the pain? 
 
Oh yeah, in other news, I got a new coffee table from IKEA.  I LOVE IKEA!  I'm serious.  And for a girl that's never been in love before, I can't compare it to anything but I think I LOVE IKEA. It might be serious.  Anyways, I'm super duper excited cause now it matches the end tables I got from IKEA two years ago.
 
Anyways,  that's it for now. 
 
Oh Yeah, I found this motivating.  Yup.  Pay attention to me now cause once I'm a hot MILF, I'll be too busy to notice you!  :P lol


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