It's official.
I'm a kickboxer. :P lol
So a few weeks ago, I went to the Total Martial Arts Centre (TMAC). I signed up for three classes a week, which is like $96/month. I figure I can use my savings benefit to pay for it.
Anyways... I go to the lunch classes held on Mondays and Fridays, which is Co-ed. (Which I'm kinda surprised considering I never try to stay in the same room if men are occupying it. But I figure if I can get over that fear while doing something else, it's just a bonus.) Anyways, the first couple of classes were awesome. Everyone was partnered up so I got the green monster (the punching bag). I LOVE the green monster. Why? CAUSE HE DOESN'T HIT BACK!!! Then I go to class last Friday, and there's three of us females there. So now I'm part of a group. And OMG! Did I get hit and kicked! Like for real. By the end of the class, I was begging for the green monster. My back was so sore and my arms and hands shook for the rest of the day because my muscles were so sore from being hit and kicked. (Okay, we use blockers but still, your body absorbs the impact.) And then what do I do? I go pow wow dancing for two hours after that. Apparently, I'm the fucken biggest idiot that ever lived. By Friday night, I was crying. Yes. Crying. Tears of pain. My body was sooooo sore! I rubbed A535 all over my body. I smelled like old person. The next morning, I jumped out of bed. My body was so stiff. And still sore.
Anyways, the only downside about it is constantly washing my gear, especially the hand wraps. I think I might need to buy a couple of more, just so I'm not constantly doing laundry. And I need more work out clothes. Bleh. Shopping. :(
So that's it. It's been three weeks and I love it. I don't love being the only girl there but whateves. I didn't sign up to hang out with friends. I signed up to kick some ass. Anyways...
Yeah...Pretty Much
So Yeah. I pretty much wanna be like Jeb. I dunno why. No one has ever been that inspiring. Like really, conquering fears. Like who does that? Who would want to do that? WHY? But I totally get it. I think I want to.
I was three years old when I drowned. I remember it. Then I was submerged. I could see my dad looking at me. He was in the water. He could see my head bopping above the water and me flailing for help. Then I saw him go under and I saw his feet. Then he grabbed me. That was my first memory of my Hero Daddy.
Hard to believe that I have so many fears. Especially with the way I was bought up. I was pretty much my Father's son. He didn't even take my little brother on his hunting/fishing trips. It was just me. I remember sitting in the sled and then the ski-doo stopping. Then I heard my dad. "Bunny." I got up to look and he was submerged in water. We had fallen thru the ice. Not really but that bottom layer is pretty much gonna give if you don't get off it soon. So I got off and he pulled the skidoo and sled out of the water. Then we just continued on to snare some rabbits at Doctor's Creek. Another memory of my Dad rescuing me.
INSPIRED. That's how I feel. Like really? Someone can just get over their fears? Count me in. It's like I'm actually sick and tired of being afraid. And to some people, I'm the strong one. Even after the sexual assault and suicide attempt, I came back. Stronger than ever. Nothing could stop me. Except the fears that I constantly had with me since I was a kid. Listening to Jeb Corliss, it's like, it all made sense. I was like, "I know, right!!!!"
So I started. And there's other things I gotta do, but at least I started, which is the most important thing. I think that's the first step. The very important step. If you can't take one first step, then what's the fucken point? Like really? Might as well crawl into your shell now.
I know I can do this. Julianna is my motivation. Just like Jeb, she's inspired me. But now she's motivated me. Mostly to kick her ass at exercising. lmfao If that's not motivation, I don't know what is. I can't wait to jump up and down and cheer and say, "YES! I did more push-ups than you!!!!" lmfao I'm so competitive, it's not funny. I anticipate many episodes of Julianna crying. LMFAO
Well anyways, getting it started.
I was three years old when I drowned. I remember it. Then I was submerged. I could see my dad looking at me. He was in the water. He could see my head bopping above the water and me flailing for help. Then I saw him go under and I saw his feet. Then he grabbed me. That was my first memory of my Hero Daddy.
Hard to believe that I have so many fears. Especially with the way I was bought up. I was pretty much my Father's son. He didn't even take my little brother on his hunting/fishing trips. It was just me. I remember sitting in the sled and then the ski-doo stopping. Then I heard my dad. "Bunny." I got up to look and he was submerged in water. We had fallen thru the ice. Not really but that bottom layer is pretty much gonna give if you don't get off it soon. So I got off and he pulled the skidoo and sled out of the water. Then we just continued on to snare some rabbits at Doctor's Creek. Another memory of my Dad rescuing me.
INSPIRED. That's how I feel. Like really? Someone can just get over their fears? Count me in. It's like I'm actually sick and tired of being afraid. And to some people, I'm the strong one. Even after the sexual assault and suicide attempt, I came back. Stronger than ever. Nothing could stop me. Except the fears that I constantly had with me since I was a kid. Listening to Jeb Corliss, it's like, it all made sense. I was like, "I know, right!!!!"
So I started. And there's other things I gotta do, but at least I started, which is the most important thing. I think that's the first step. The very important step. If you can't take one first step, then what's the fucken point? Like really? Might as well crawl into your shell now.
I know I can do this. Julianna is my motivation. Just like Jeb, she's inspired me. But now she's motivated me. Mostly to kick her ass at exercising. lmfao If that's not motivation, I don't know what is. I can't wait to jump up and down and cheer and say, "YES! I did more push-ups than you!!!!" lmfao I'm so competitive, it's not funny. I anticipate many episodes of Julianna crying. LMFAO
Well anyways, getting it started.
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